stressssssss!!!

wwaaaaa! i am so alone! i'm happy for my friends... but, i felt like, sometin goes wrong!

result spm.....

Dah empat malam wani x boleh tido.... ni semua, pasal pikirkan relut spm yang dh nk diumum x lama lagi.... kalau cheang yg terror 2 pun boleh dpt cm 2 untuk stpm dia... wani???? aduh!!!!! pening2! ya allah.... i just share this feeling with kak pika, my second sis, well mayb, she is the closest family members to me, so, i'm feelin comfortable.... well, at first, i wish to tell this feelin to 1 of my school senior... when i talked to him, i felt like, really2 comfortable and safe... well, i knew him since i was 13... but, he is not online right now.. so, i called my sis.... well, my skin prob are getting better... alhamdulilah.... but, if i dont passd my spm, i have to change the plan, and start my new strategy... but, at first, i have to be patient with those teases... well, i bet some of my "clever" frens n family would have a "slowtalk" session with me.... yeah right! well, i'm not gonna spend my whole life with all of u! so, pls, dont bother!

really hope, i'm gonna get enough sleep... i'm starting to feel sick right now! wek!!!

wani.....

Where Did he go???

18/02/10

OMG...lamanye I dh x dengar citer dari seseorg tu...How's he agaknye erk?Sihat ke?Hopefully angin yang bertiup akan sampaikan salam I pdnya.I miss him but I noe I bley STAND ALONE..I noe we apart for reason,is juz that I haven't found the reason.Semua yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya...Maybe the quote"u enter my life juz to teach me how to live alone"is true...

Lyn

Cinta Ada...

Andai aku butakan mata,
Dptkah kau mendengar jujurnya?
Andai engkau tutup telinga,
Dptkah kau melihat keikhlasannya?

Aku cinta bukan dibayang mata,
Jauh dari bahasa,dekatkan ertinya,
Aku cinta bukannya disengaja,
Jauh dari wasangka,dekatkan hatinya,
Mmg cinta ada dlm cinta kita...

Andai cinta itu buta,
Dptkah kau mengubah pesonanya?
Andai mengalir air mata,
Dptkah kau membezakan jelingnya?

Mengapa ada saksi yd x memahami?
Mengapa ada saksi yg disalah erti?

Wishing tree????

This tree is so nice.Menyala-nyala.Mcm christmas pun ada.Actually it is a wishing tree.Org dulu2 percaya that if we wished kat tree ni,our dream will come true.I x tau la coz x try.I think is not we wish then we dapat,is becoz kita bersungguh-sungguh dgn wat we wished so kita berjaya la mencapainya.It is becoz of our mind set.

push!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so sick!!! thinking bout the spm result! i cant sleep at night! i'm so scared! what if, i do not get the best??? what will i tell mum n dad??? they must be disappointed... astagfirullah! sick! i'm losing him...! no one can help, only HIM.... no more tears, i'm a strong girl... let me think on the bright side, i have my mum n dad, still have my bro n sisters and great aunt... what a perfect family! growing up with full of love...! great... be positive WANI, u can do it!

Terasa kehilangaN...

12/02/10

Today Wanie dh ke kl.I kat sni x ke mane lg...Esok,I dh x online,reasonnye...hanye i dgn wanie je tau.Biarla rahsia.CNY tahun ni I mcm sunyi,sumone yg i pernah syg dh x de dgn i this year...X pe,I tau I bley survive and stand alone...To H,thx sbb u ada dgn I this few days.X sangka u akan jd so good to me.Thx and I appreciate everything that u have done for me.

Lyn

Things change...

I dunno wat's goin on with me.Things seem to be round and round.Jap ok,jap tak.I yang face it pun dh pening.Klau masa boleh turn back can best.I nk balik ke zaman sekolah dulu.I miss my friends so much.Wanie...thx sebab faham my situation.Percaya la,he never leave you,he always remain in your heart.Dia ada dekat hati u.Biarpun dia ignore u does not mean he hates u.,ada reason disebalik itu cuma kita je x tau.U kena strong sis...I am always here for u,ingat sampai mati.

To Wanie and mYseLf

Wanie...look at this quote and remember it till the end of ur life bila u alami kekecewaan bersama si dia...I dgn dia krisis lg,so kali ini I dh buat keputusan utk pergi.X guna muncul di samping org yg x pernah appreciate kita.Is gonna cause my heart bertambah parah...Hari ni betul-betul I kecewa dgn attitude dia so biarla masa yg menentukan semua...Klau kita x jga hati kita,sape yg nak jaga?

Love letters......

Sape yg x suka dapat love letter?Eventhough skrg teknologi dh canggih tp love letter still yg terbaik.Love letter biar kite express perasaan kita pd org yg kita syg dgn penuh keikhlasan.Ape yg kita tulis is straight from the bottom of our heart.Tp,semakin cnggih zaman ni,surat cinta makin dilupakan.Teringat masa I tercrush kat this guy,I used to bg love letter.hahaha....smua tu still fresh in my mind and akan jd memori indah.

astagfirullah.... sabar2....

what did i do? kenape dia moody n mcm x nk layan me? things dat happen to lynn, happen to me... i'm wondering........ btw, hahaha... i memain tukar relationship status dgn arif! lawak betul! ada yg hanat komen tny, omg! dgn arif? no way! he is bff since i form 1... x de pape perasan kat dia! hehheheeh..... ish3! back to him, i'm feelin not really good bout it.... mungkin busy, mungkin having problem... bnyk possibilities, i'm goin with lynn, soon.... i'm bleeding last night... lot of pain... still, i did not cry....

if i tell him about my feelin, will he undrstnd or just reject me on the spot..??? or, he try to avoid me coz he knew dat i like him? waaaaaa....! i need the answer!!!

Can life be simplier?

Klau life boleh jd mcm maths kan bagus,boleh simplify jd simple.That is so impossible.Esok,I am goin out.Dah lama I x have a girls day out.Hope everything is gonna be alright.Teringat wat I told Krys laz nite,days in our life create the chapter in our novel.Bg I everyone is like novel character,apa yg kita buat atau yg terjadi sumtime buat kita kecewa but sumtimes di sebalik kekecewaan tu,wujud sinar gembira.Exactly mcm novel,ada part sedih,ada part yg buat kita happy.Cuma,bezanya novel dan kehidupan sebenar is that novel,kita dh tau ending ceritanye,tetapi dlam kehidupan sebenar,kita terpaksa ambil masa untuk menyelesaikan masalah yg datng melanda.

national service

i keep on thinking bout this, long time ago.... since the first time i heard that NS is a kinda-military thing, so, i dont like it... my mum and dad seems like they dont want me to participate NS, well, i was thinking the same. its so hard for me to make my step to NS, well, some people or i called them the 3rd party, want me to go. i dont like to be pushed!!! when i saw the 1st intake of NS in 2003, i was still in primary school, i was hoping dat i will not be chosen, but things coming upside down! i dont want to go! to those, who want me 2 go, would u guys b kindly hearted to replace me..??? daaaa..... its for three months... i just read the death issue in NS, each year, msti ada participant yang sick or die! i have to say this, I AM NOT READY TO LEAVE MY FAMILY YET!!!!!!!! once i said NO, means NO!!!!